For the first time in so many years, I finally sat down, closed my eyes, and relaxed my mind. At that point, I suddenly realised how tired I was mentally.
I realised that I had been keeping too much to myself, and suddenly had to talk to someone, but then again, there is no one I can say everything to.
Not that I'm saying I cant trust them, but there is some kind of blockade within thats prevents me from saying these things until the point when I am about to explode.
Sometimes I just want to stop trying hard for anything, studies,cca,friends, etcetc. But I know that if I dont help, no one else would, so I must persevere.
I may not look like a type of person that would do these things, but let me tell you, I'm no longer the Nicholas that came into AHS 2 years ago.
Many things that have been happening in these past 2 years have caused me to change into the more inside type of person. If some of you cant sense that difference in me, then I'm utterly dissapointed. The countless words of wisdom, heartaches, headaches have reformed me into a more reserved person. Of course, I've probably never shown the reserved side of me to most.
How I wish that one day, I can stop worrying about my friends. They are the ones that bring me the greatest joy, but ironically, also the ones that brings me much heartache.
However, some of them are oblivious to whats happening around them, while those who know are weighed down by these secrets.
So, what I want to say is, as long as any of my friends need any help, I am willing to be there for you, a supporting pillar that will not waver. And I'm grateful to those who are willing to lend me theri ears, and at the same tine, consider me and enough friend to talk to me when you also need a listening ear.

Care more about each other people, you only have less than 2 years left here. Make the best of what you have and do not complain. I resented 3A before the year started, but now Im enjoying myself in it. So just be willing to give others a chance, just like what Miss Lee Chin Sin said. "Give them the benefit of the doubt, give them the time and chance to become your friends"

lol.... feels like im emoing...